So as promised, I’m answering the question, “How did I get here?” The simple answer is, I got fired….twice.
The last few months have been a whirlwind. I have walked into the Digital Nomad Lifestyle as though I had the perfect Blue Print. Well sort of. Let’s just say that if a person saw my presentation without hearing all of my stories of small failures or realizing how many different plans and ideas I’ve had over the past few months they would believe that I had the perfect Blue Print.
The truth of the matter is, all I had was extra time on my hands due to being fired. That, wifi, the world wide web and a strong desire to never have to go through being fired again.
While I understand that this apparently happens to the best of us, I’m not the kind that should be getting terminated twice within a two year span. Yes, it happened to me, both times from my “Dream Job”.
To make a long story short, the first time it was for a job that I relocated back from California to Texas for. Although I loved California and left Texas because I hated it, I was thrilled to accept this particular job and move back down South. For three months I sat in the office without so much as a log-in, without training and without much acknowledgement that I was even there. I watched others who were hired around the same time I was, jet set all around the World and participate in weekly meetings while I sat discouraged and confused. I continued to make myself as useful as possible filing papers and answering the phone while repeatedly stating that I was anxious to hit the ground running, learn all that I could and take on my first client.
This was the truth as clients equaled travel, and since I was a very little girl, traveling is all I’ve ever wanted to do. While everyone else was playing house, I was pretending that I was on a jet or a yacht.
During my time at this job, every other day I was given excuses regarding man power, scheduling and timing. I was repeatedly told that my day would come. Well three months later I was called into the office and informed that the company was changing directions and wouldn’t be needing me after all.
Needless to say, I was devastated. I was now certain that my dreams of being a “Road Warrior-Jet Setting Executive” were over. Fast forward to three months later after a lot of crying, praying, giving up and winding myself back up to give it one more try over and over again, I finally landed the same “Dream Job”. This time I’d get a little more money and I’d walk in the door and receive a client immediately.
While this may sound exciting, I have to be honest and tell you that the Glassdoor reviews for this company, as well as the interview was covered in red flags, complete with glaring red lights to match, but I HAD to accept this once, now twice in a lifetime opportunity. I mean who else was going to pay me to do what I loved to do (Event Planning) and travel?
Well for seven months straight I got clients and work alright…..so much so that I literally lost sight of myself and any other part of my life outside of work. Often times I found myself working 7 days per week and upwards of 80 hours. I was turning down invites to brunches, cook outs and dates left and right, I simply didn’t have the time.
Yes I was traveling and staying in five star luxury hotels, but I’d have to rip and run through them for 12 to 16 hours per day, sometimes longer, and in high heels much of the time. The pressure was unreal. The company’s turnover was laughable, yes we would literally laugh and discuss how ridiculous the demands were at this place.
Let me remind you that none of this came as a surprise. I knew exactly what I was signing up for when I accepted the role. The over-achiever in me just wanted to beat the odds and reap the benefits of what I deemed an amazing opportunity.
While some parts of me loved the fact that I was in a different city every month, eating at some of the finest restaurants and racking up on points and perks, another part of me was resentful that I couldn’t experience the cities without tight timelines, swollen feet and competitive colleagues smiling in my face while watching and reporting back my every move.
Can I just tell ya that I’m literally beginning to feel anxious as I type this. Yes, I literally just had to let out a huge sigh. A sigh of relief. Thank God on high that seven months later, two weeks after receiving a perfect mid-year review ….you guessed it, I got fired.
I didn’t shed a tear. I’d worked the “Dream Job” twice now, and had to be honest with myself. Neither were dreams after all, they were absolute nightmares. I knew that I’d done my best, as a matter of fact, a few hours before they made the cut, I received an email from one of my clients going on and on about how wonderful I was and how much she looked forward to working with me again. With all of this reassurance from the Universe, I knew that it was simply time for me to surrender.
I’ve come to know that when you know that you know that you know, that a series of circumstances has pushed you in a certain direction that is completely out of your control, you have to stop and listen. You can ask a few questions as well, but be sure to listen.
While traveling was huge on my list, so was entrepreneurship and having a creative outlet as well as writing and content creation. I thought that I had to trade one for the other, but the more I began to ask the right questions, the more I began to receive answers, and the more I began to define who it was that I desired to be at my core.
In hindsight I realize that I kept trying to force myself to be an “Executive”. Sure I can walk the walk and talk the talk, but while sitting in the Boardroom with pumps and a slicked back ponytail, I secretly desired to be more casual while wearing my natural fro or my signature waist length braids.
The thought of being a Digital Nomad feels good to me. Scary as hell, but nothing like the debilitating anxiety that I felt before.
I now take my nervous energy and put it into being creative.
In the past few months I’ve launched this blog, written an E-book and workbook, created three thriving Facebook groups, created another blog and podcast that are getting great traction, started a book club, started writing my memoir and more. To say that I’ve been busy is an understatement. As I’m in the building phase of so many different facets of this journey, I’m a far cry from the 4-Hour Workweek, but I’m on my way.
If my story resonated with you, I actually made a video about how I went from living in constant fear to living a freedom based life. You can check it out here.
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